Thursday, April 26, 2007

A slippery road to Heaven


Amelia had to go on living, in spite of the suffering, which poisoned her soul and mind...She seemed to be indifferent with her frozen heart and sarcastic grimace on her face. Her slim and attractive body revealed her inner self expressed by so called "3 P"; pride, pain and prejudice instead of "3 E"; eroticism, energy and empathy.
"The loss of unfulfilled love hurts much more than the loss of fulfilled one," she thought.
"But I can't give up, I must live my life fully as if my loss was a gift, thanks to which I can understand myself and the essence of true love", Amelia said to herself.
It was pretty difficult to exist, study and work as if nothing special had happened. As if Bogdan was a ghost or a vampire, who must be removed from all her dreams and memories in order that Amelia could take a fresh, deep breath of new ideas. It took her some sleepless nights, but it really worked and she started a new stage in her life - putting her feet on a slippery road to Heaven, called Happiness...
To be continued...

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

How to say goodbye?


It was very late and probably Amelia would have slept her wonderful dreams if she hadn't been listening to her dad's monologue for five hours. In fact, she wasn't able to focus on his words, his harsh voice aroused anger in poor Amelia. But Eddie didn't pay attention to his daughter's reactions and feelings. He simply wanted to make her answer two simple questions: "where were you so long?" and "who was with you?" You may wonder if this guy was really mad talking to her daughter this way. Mind you, Amelia at that time was a 26-year-old, responsible and serious woman (not a kid)...No, he wasn't mad - maybe scared, as two hours before Amelia came home, he had answered the phone. During the conversation - he heard sth like that:
"If your daughter doesn't leave us alone, we will send you a parcel and you will find the dust of your beloved Amelia in it".
It must have been a shock for a man like him, as he began shaking throwing down the phone and crying like a small kid. Eddie realized tha Amelia had problems, and as he knew nothing about cults - he thought,
"My little daughter must meet criminals. That's obvious. But how shall I make her tell me the truth? Maybe if I insist she will tell me, yeah she will!"
But she didn't do it at all-all the time Amelia was sitting as if she was paralyzed. She wasn't able to say a word, all of it seemed to be a nightmare. She hated his father for telling her about the phone call. She hated him for revealing the truth, depriving her of illusions. She had to escape from him in order not to get mad. Her imagination let her disappear very quickly... Once again Amelia was sitting on Bogdan's knees on the sofa, feeling his delicate touch and hearing the words of love... But it didn't work long, after a while an angry voice of Eddie woke her from daydreaming. You can't escape from the real world no matter how much you will try, can you?
Next day Amelia met Bogdan just to tell him about that phone call and her hard night, giving him a choice "if you wanna be with me, leave the cult and go with me abroad". And he chose...the cult, sacrificed their friendship, love for the Moonists. Amelia couldn't believe that she wasn't that important...So she said goodbye to her beloved and no doubt, it has been one of the most painful goodbyes in her lifetime...

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Love is blind, isn't it?


Amelia felt the warmth of his tongue on her neck, but when his fingers started marking abstract shapes on her silky skin, it took her breath away for a short while..."Don't stop it, please", she whispered in a low voice and let her body begin a wild love dance with the body of her lover. Amelia appeared to be a perfect love dancer and a wonderful teacher of this exceptional style of dancing. When finally their bodies got united in a mystical, magical communion, Amelia heard a strange voice saying, "Excuse me, but have you ordered strawberry icecreams?" She opened her eyes and.. saw the waitress standing at their table... "What a shame, how could I make love here?", Amelia couldn't help feeling some guilt. She looked around and noticed lots of eyes staring at her. She was sitting at the table petrified, her eyes expressed humiliation. No sign of former excitement could be seen on her face. In a weak voice she answered the question of the waitress and asked for the bill.
Needless to say, that Bogdan also was looking at her with astonishment. For the last twenty minutes he had been trying to explain Amelia all the dogmas of his faith. At first she seemed to be focused on what he was saying, but then looked strange with her eyes closed and a mysterious smile on her face. No doubt she looked attractive, even to him. He liked her so much but couldn't let himself lose control of his emotions, though he dreamt of having sex with her very often. That's why he kept explaining things to her as if he was just her preacher...until the waitress appeared.
As soon as Bogdan paid the bill, they left "Jama Michalika", said goodbye to each other and came back to their homes. It was about midnight, when Amelia opened the door and said hello to her mum and dad... She thought it would be nice to have a relaxing bath and go to bed. She could analyze the whole meeting with Bogdan, their strange sexual encounter in the coffee house, all her emotions, feelings and thoughts. Unfortunately, Eddie (as you remember- it is Amelia's dad) made her forget about all her excitement after he asked his daughter (in an angry voice) to sit down and talk to him about her date...But before Eddie let Amelia say anything, he had started shouting at her..his voice was full of pain, anger and fear...